Not a good feeling

This week is not a good week. Many of the essay/test results just came in, and I didn't do well on either one of them. What's happening to me? I lost my self-confidence too. Penat dah macam nih. Tapi maybe it's my fault too. Tak cukup beri usaha, tak cukup faham materials, and most importantly my goal wasn't clear enough. Dulu memang dah figure out that I want to further my studies until Master degree at least. But after tengok requirement untuk apply loan Mara etc, terus hilang interest. Terus takde semangat. Please Farah. Sikit lagi nak habis nih. Sikit lagi nak sampai hujung. Sikit lagi nak genggam impian dan angan-angan masa kecil.

Itu pasal study. Pasal personal pulak, hmm entah. Makin lama makin samar. Lambat lagi kot masanya. Tapi bila tengok orang lain bahagia, sapa yang tak suka kan? Memang lain orang lain portion kebahagiaan masing-masing. Aku punya mungkin lambat. Semalam dalam kelas belajar pasal loneliness. Like, do you feel lonely even when you are in the crowd of people? Zappp kena kat diri sendiri. Ah, sudahlah!